My Before Pics

Well.. I had Josh take my before pictures. I wore a bathing suit bottom that I used to fit into and my sports bra because I couldn't find the top. Wow. I need to lose weight. It's amazing what a picture can make you see.

The one from the back really looks bad. Ugh. It is just driving me to keep going to the gym and eat right and whatever, but that one is really hard to look at without cringing. I don't think I'll post them yet. I know you guys won't suddenly judge me and think I'm horrible or anything, I just don't feel comfortable sharing them with the world yet.

It was another wake up call. I need to lose the weight. Josh says I look beautiful. Okay, I may be beautiful, but I also still need to lose the weight. I'm not perfect. I don't plan to ever be perfect. But I am overweight and I need to do something about it. I know, he's my hubby and would never call me fat. I wouldn't want him too. But he can acknowledge what I am saying. I'm only stating the obvious. I want to be healthier. I have diabetics in my family. I don't want to get diabetes. My dad and my uncle (half uncle) both have had heart attacks. And my dad wasn't even overweight at all! However, he did smoke. My uncle was overweight and also smoked (and maybe still does) My dad doesn't smoke. I quit smoking. My next hurdle is losing the weight.

I don't want six pack abs or whatever. I just want to be healthy. I want to buy a dress and not worry if my sides look horrible in them. I want to wear a two piece so I can finally show my belly button ring that I got when I was 20!

Okay, I am done ranting. That was just hard to see. The last time I put that pair of swimming bottoms on, I looked great in them! And I was 20. And when I am done, I will look great in them again.. but I'll have to buy another suit. I can't find the top to this one haha.

Alright, that's all for now.

Jen